Sydney Stops All opportunities....

I am here in Sydney Airport Transfer...waiting for my flight to Singapore.....Sigh I can't believe that I am still going back after all that shit done in NZ immigration and get nothing out of it.Farking hell. I am at a point of no return.....That explains the Title of this blog....I still feel that more can be done in Nz other than sight seeing....such a waste of my bloody time......i dun really know what GOD has in store for me in Life, to make this thing in NZ a failure...Its Not Like I am Not trying......SIGH...its like 844pm Australia time and 646pm in Singapore....by the time i reach Singapore, I will be Pruned up by the pressure...........OH Singapore What Am i to do with you....I Fare You Well Beloved New Zealand.........AuVoir....

New Zealand Blues!!!!!!

These few days in Nz Has made me realise that, i Have taken things for granted.....i've seen differen people from different walks of life...from a 30 year old woman living with her parents, who was pregnant many times,a doctor who is a slut...i tot my life was Shit...its still is. i have learnt that no matter the status,the appointment or how learnt you are....Shit still comes your way.
The differrence between them and me is, they have already have a goal but is lost when it comes to social life. As for me, i have a social life but have not achieved a freaking thing in life....New Zealand is the place that i have choosen to find that purpose, but still fall flat on my face.Everything i have done in my life has always been disrupted by something else which i felt was right, but isn't. I have made alot of mistakes in life and still making them....I am lost. I dunno where i am going or going to do with myself.Its very frustrating........Life's full of crap with me....That is what it is...My Life is crap.....