Life As It Is

Hell finally, I got the bloody chance to update This Blog......Well, things in life has not been well for me since the last post.Yah everyone might be thinking..."Wah that Imran the Mak Ayam, Got Tons of friends. Confirm Happy as a Clam with His life one." *BULLtSHIT* What I am rEally Feeling Is sadness,lost, Lonely. The many times when i am alone, i start thinking about the So Called glorious life i am leading, 'helping',Taking Care', supporting others needs and neglecting my life. With all those 'SO Called' glorious things i've dun for people, i dun seem to get good things coming to me. Ever heard of the saying "Good things will come to those who wait." I am Waiting for that moment for a very long time. I have been doing things in my life to make a better me, but every time i make it better.....shit starts crumbling on my head. My Love life even( What Love Lfe!!). Problems one after another(Half even not my problems) pile up , suffocating me, everytime I make it better.Always ask myself, why is GoD tormenting me this way, why is lady luck not smiling at me, Why is the goddess of love condemning my love life. Is there a purpose for me to be here. Am i brought to this world to feel others, yet i cannot feel? Is this hell for me,that i have to take it?.....I dun know GoD, Is there purpose for me?...Being someone is to feel glorious,proud,majestic.....Not feel remorse, dgraded anf shitty..I feel People Dun understand the real me.....I am like anybody, I Need To love and be loved by a special someone, hug to sleep,cuddle,argue,......and all that jazz. i am like a time bomb that is set off any time implode.....I NEED!!!!!

Byul YOuMe

the wind knocks on the window
over the room as small as me
twinkling stars so beautiful filling the room with Love
don't be hurt
caressing my wound gently embracing me to SLeep

crawling to me like a dream
my little star up high dazzling my eyes
shining brightly
falling on my shoulders
don't be sad anymore
holding my hands tightly caressing my wound
it embraces me warm

too hurt for my legs to walk.
eyes so blurry with tears
before Love never meant for me
i will keep smiling
dear moments with u
buried deep in my heart
like those stars embroidered in my eyes
i will Love You forever