Never The same...

I amd feeling very lost for a very long time....I feel hopeless in getting my life in track again...(well it was never in track) I feel a depression is in order....I feel shitty....my life's has never shown me a tinge of hope, so that i can move on in life...evrything i have(which is nothing) seems to be dissappearing. I noe its wrong, but death's perks are enticing me...i am sick and tired people telling me that i am foolish and should be going on with life.......I know all that...something is still not there......Me.....What i got to do to make my life...filled with meaning...sIGH.